Divorce Sucks…

Divorce sucks.  When I chose to divorce your mother it was for very personal reasons between her and I.  It had absolutely nothing to do with you two.  You two have always brought me tremendous joy.  Divorcing your mother was the hardest thing I have ever had to do, ever.  I loved your mother deeply.  Don’t ever let anyone tell you differently.  You were both conceived through an abundance of love.  We both wanted both of you.  You should never question this.  I have never been filled with as much joy as the days you two were born.  And you continue to fill my heart with joy, everyday.

I know divorce has not been easy for either of you.  For that I am deeply sorry. You two have had to endure too many rough times.  Too many fights where you were caught in the middle.  Too many lies and false stories.  Too many heartaches.  If I could change this, I would, in an instant.  I have tried, over the years to be a great father to both of you.  Trying not to let “divorce” affect our time together.  I have managed my life entirely around you two.  Wanting to make sure I was available for you, to go to class plays, class field days, class trips, teacher meetings, soccer games, softball games, basketball games, volleyball games and coaching you in many sports.  Not because I had to or someone told me to, but because I wanted to.  I have never wanted anything as much as I wanted to be your father, everyday!  I have been here for you every day and night.  You may not have seen me, but I was and always will be.

I love you both more then you will ever know.  This will never change, that I promise.  No matter what happens or where life takes us, I will always be here for you and love you unconditionally.  You have my word on that.